Now that you know my back story, where to begin?

My cocoon was bursting at the seams as my wings were ready but I was not. I was   used to the limitations in my life because that’s what felt familiar.  Just like I did with my anxieties, avoiding places that push my buttons.  Stay where it’s safe. 

But that’s not really living my best life. It’s the drip method. You don’t even notice the little changes, day by day, month by month, year by year.  The analogy of the switch back on the train tracks if moved one inch can change the direction of the train and within an hour it can be 1200 miles away from its original routed destination.

Recognizing Depression

Looking back, I didn’t recognize myself. I found myself missing events, not eating if I had a busy schedule, lack of sleep. I basically gave up and severe depression set in. 

What is depression?  (major depressive disorder).  Depression is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act.  Fortunately, it’s treatable.  Depression causes feelings of sadness and or loss of interest in activities you once enjoyed.

Losing Interest In Life

Losing interest in life, seemed like I was just getting old before my time. All my hopes and dreams that I had as well as my career were gone.  Was all this just a foreshadowing of what old age is about for everyone?  Doctor visits, tests, being vulnerable and powerless with what your body decides to do?  People telling you this is the last car you will ever have to buy or no need to buy a new mattress, this one will last you? 

Be gone with you naysayers. I am not spending the rest of my life waiting for the grim reaper.  

Going to the hospital again terrified me. I felt I would rather die than put my life in the hands of the medical system again. The only way out of my depression was to take my power back. To not be a victim to a body out of control and taking advice from people that don’t’ know jack sh#t about my body.

A Higher Power?

Do you believe in a higher power, the universe, or source whatever you want to call it? There is a magnificent and beautiful power out there that sends us answers to a better life if we want it bad enough.  We need to find our life’s purpose, to find true joy and fulfillment.  

When God gives you a new beginning, it starts with an ending.  Be thankful for closed doors.  They often guide us to the right one!    A Woman of Faith

When I saw the poster that said “Your Time in a Cocoon is up Your Wings are Ready” it was like fireworks going off in my soul. There was a new life, new challenges and new adventures out there just waiting for me. Maybe even a motorcycle!

Yes, I was stuck in my dam cocoon far too long because it was easy. But really, looking back, it was giving up. Ever since that moment of enlightenment I have had an unexplainable fire in my belly to find answers. 

I spent every spare minute immersing myself in reading and watching and searching for answers.  Hundreds of hours narrowing down possible remedies that fit my situation. Breaking free of my cocoon wasn’t easy. But the thought of having wings to free myself from this hellish, debilitating existence was exhilarating.  

To be a productive, fully functioning human again was a dream come true.  

Are you ready to find your inspiration?

This is where the real work comes in.

Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work.  Thomas A. Edison

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